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9.21/22.21

Becoming At Peace

Okay, well. It's been a bit since I've updated. A lot has happened. I got in a car crash and my new car was totaled. I quit my job. Got scammed by a potential new job, which left me in the worst financial spot I've ever found myself in. And having a hard time coping with post-quarantine physique. All things considered, however, were a few months/weeks ago, and I'm trying my best to get back on track! Thanks to the infinite kindness of friends and followers, I was able to make it through with emergency commissions (not something I ever want to do again) after asking for some help. I have things to look forward to: A new well-paying job, a trip to Toronto, and that's that. Chin up, folx, it gets better from here :strong:

Eventually I'd like to throw together a manuscript for Questward, as I also work on Divine Pulse or even a new Quantum Century. Also working on starting Tumble In The Jungle with my friend Ashley. Work, work. Keep busy so I forget why I'm sad. Chin up, anyway, and all that.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Coping
McD's Bfast
Montero
Mission To Zyx
Cowboy Bebop
Hades Again
Want Deltarune
Based On A True Story by Norm Macdonald/Mort by Terry Pratchett

3.13.21

EXCITED!!

I have so many THINGS happening! I got a haircut on Saturday, and then immediately after a person working at a drive thru said, "I like your style!" Which, honestly, is just the coolest unprompted compliment I could ever receive! I was just positively glowing for the rest of the day after that. I'm getting married on Thursday! It's a low-key Zoom court-house wedding, but I'm really stoked for it and I'm happy that it's finally happening. Aaaand I laid down some serious dough for a high-quality model of Aubrey from a popular 3D modeler on Twitter and I am just incredibly stoked that he accepted to take on Aubs and I'm just so so pumped to see and play with her model. Art work has picked up so I'm looking to crank out some serious pieces and catch up with my queue and, just, wow. Things are happening. Thank you for reading! Wish you all health & safety.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Amped!!
Work Provided Lunch
Kitcaliber
The Adventure Zone
Jujutsu Kaisen
Digimon Cyber Sleuth
Digimon Watch Thing
Everyone Has A Podcast But You by the McElroy Bros

3.13.21

Hey, everything's okay

Gosh, I think things have just kind of built up to a peak for me. But I mean, still trying pretty hard to keep my head up! Let's see, what are some good things happening. I'm getting married on April 1st (not a joke LOL), my schedule has changed so I have three days off (which is hard but good for me!), and ummmm. Ummmmmmm. Gettin ready for that stimmy baby. No, just kidding. But I've been kind of down and my diet has just plummeted, and the worst part is that it's starting to show. However! My ankle, which still hurts, has been allowing (how gracious) me to play some DDR so... I dunno, breaking a sweat might help me feel better. I had a friend of mine be kind of mean to me, and, well. I should know better, because he's always like that, but it still hurts. And the worst part is that it leaves me thinking: Why do I care? Because I do care. About him, I mean. So, it just makes it suck a little more. We have a difficult relationship... That I feel like would be better without me.

ANYWAYY, enough of me being mopey! As I always say: Things Will Get Better. I hope everyone out there is trying their best as well, and I wish you all health and sanity.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


It'll get better
"Indulgent" Trail Mix
Dance Gavin Dance
MBMBAM
Pokemon Journeys
Digimon Cyber Sleuth
Mobile Legends BB
Everyone Has A Podcast But You by the McElroy Bros

2.28.21

I cried!! What the heck!!!

I've experienced an emotion that I hadn't felt since high school: Rejection. Which, I'd wager, not feeling it for so long is probably not a good thing! I've joined a writing forum. They're the serious types, hardcore critiquing and seeking to publish themselves. Livelihoods at stake, here. And here I am, doofy and such, I swoop in and get my first thread asking for help Deleted. It was an interest-check. I submitted my site to be read to see if anyone was interested. I asked why it was deleted, or if there was a better way to ask my question, and the response was more of an... "This isn't what this forum is for" with no real... construction. There was no suggestion from this all-powerful mod with probably a lot more knowledge than me on the topic. And, well, I cried! The emotion wasn't so much of a, "This is so unfair, they were mean to me, nyeh nyeh," but more of a, "I gathered courage to put myself out there to get better and I got Erased." It stung!

And, well. What else is there to do but keep trying? I want to play by their rules, while also expressing my doofy self. I want to be a better writer, while still having a voice. And! I want to face rejection with a shrug. I've never handled rejection well, I'm a bit of a crybaby. So, I mean, I just want to get rejected more, so that it doesn't affect me as much! Which means I have to put myself out there! Which is exactly what I want to do! So, get ready for the water works. 'Cause there's probably more on the way.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Aaargh
Starbursts I guess
Kitcaliber
Nothing atm
Digimon
Digimon Cyber Sleuth
Rune Factory 4
Everyone Has A Podcast But You by the McElroy Bros

2.22.21

New Car oWo

Bought my first (used) car! With my own saved up money, of which I have no more of! Woo hoo! It's a 2015 (which is a 14 year improvement upon my previous car) Ford Focus. I went with the Focus because that's what my dad has, and well, he might know how to work on it... in case anything goes bad... huhuhu. It's windows are tinted crazy black, which nobody is really sure is legal. We'll see if I get pulled over and play the dumb card. The interior is crazy nice, and actually has Bluetooth! I was only hoping for an aux cable upgrade, but lucked out on the wireless technology! Ohh the little things... Also as a backup cam, which I need, because the rear window is tinted so dark I literally can't see out of it (which I love for the privacy but holy shit let me see). Aaaand the previous owners hot-boxed the everloving Hell out of it, so it does smell like entering a thick fog of the dankest kush your brain could fathom. The stench sticks to my clothes, so I'll have to do something about that... But until then, it's a wicked good ride and I'm very proud to feel so independant and treat myself to a big ole' adult purchase.

In other news, I'm still trying to alter my schedule to have more freedom as far as sinking time and effort into my art business, if I really want to call it that. By "trying" I mean, "thinking really really hard about it and hoping something manifests out of it." Really, I just have to talk to my supervisor and see if I can lose some hours to pick up through art. Sigh. That's a scary thought. And the only reason why I'm even considering something so risky is because my student loans (half of them) have been delayed until September. Really, the smart move would be to continue working full-time and sink some real dough into my student loans while they're interest-free. But even then, it's not like they'd be paid off completely in one year, so I feel like now could be an opportunity to establish a work relationship that's healthy, creative, and sustainable. Wow what a concept!

Anyway, thanks for looking through a window into my life. A heavily, heavily tinted window. That you probably couldn't see through.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Wheee!
Fruit/Cheese Box & Kiwi Strawberry Lemonade
Cherry Glazr
Dungeons & Daddies
Attack on Titan Season 4
Mobile Legends bang bang
Rune Factory 4
Abhorssen by Garth Nix

2.16.21

Bad Year!!

Good god this year is terrible so far, isn't it? Like. Wow! I'm trying to make the best of it so far, while attempting to keep my head above water. I moved my main computer, cintiq, and all my streaming stuff into a small cottage in a city over. It took a lot of setting up, including cleaning the whole thing inside and out, taking the things out of it, and buying an outdoor cat6 ethernet cable and running it from the main house to the cottage (which entailed drilling holes into buildings. Righteous.) Anyway, that was an exhausting endeavor that I am still not done with, so whoopee. Getting it set up to do the art is so tiring that I haven't quite gotten to the Do Art part.

I'm also going to attempt to buy my first car this weekend. All of my cars thus far have been hand-me-downs, so this will be a huge step for me as far as independence and, well, aesthetic. It'll be the newest car I've ever owned, if all goes well. I'm vibrating with anticipation, really. Terrified and exhilarated. I hate to spend this money. Especially right now. When, really, this is also the most amount of money I've ever had at one time (don't get all excited, it's not much.) But it just breaks my heart to see it go. That can't be a healthy relationship with money... Anyway, I'm back to work. Much love to everyone out there, stay healthy, stay safe.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Hang in there
6" veggie subs
Lapfox
My Brother My Brother & Me
Jiu Jutsu anime
Mobile Legends bang bang
Fire Emblem 3 Houses
Taking a Break

11.7.20

Hurt muh bones

Ate shit while skateboarding and sprained my right ankle and arm. Been out of work for a week and recuperating. I think my arm might actually be fractured, but I can still move around and thankfully draw and type. I want to take the opportunity off of work to practice with my tablet and learn Blender (as opposed to Maya, which I know a lot more about). It's going to be a pain in my ass to relearn 3D in a completely new program, but its capabilities are growing SO much, it's free, and it does the kind of art that I want to do. So, I'll learn. I hope everyone had a good Halloween. I binge watched scary movies with my fiance, binge ate chocolate, and binge sat trying to rest my injuries haha.

In more recent and personal news, yesterday I had the most wonderful day. I was able to sleep in, got a little further in Pokemon Mystery Dungeon (as well as Hades, a truly great game), and my mom came over to help me out. She really put the work in. She made her awesome chicken soup that she makes around this time every year to make sure none of us get the flu, as well as garlic bagels (and did my dishes, bless her). Once my dad was off work, he came over for dinner too! That was a pleasant surprise. We put on Over The Moon, a Netflix animated musical that just blew me away. Mom passed out before the opening credits (she was exhausted), and Dad kept poking fun at story tropes in the movie. There was a point where I had the captions on because some of the names and pronunciations were Chinese so I thought it would help, and my dad leaned over and says, "Do we need the captions on? It's not like I'm hard of hearing." So I turned them off, and not five minutes later he leans over and says, "What'd that guy say?" And I laughed my whole ass off. We had JUST turned the captions off, are you serious!

After dinner, my parents left and I saw I had a call from my big brother. I called him back, and the noise on the other line was RAUCOUS. He, his wife, and his two kids were in the middle of a Super Mario game. Practically the first thing that was coherent that I could pick out was, "We're coming over to your island!" And, before I knew it, I was leading my niece around my Animal Crossing island showing her my fun things, while my nephew baby-babbled to me over the phone about his Halloween (he was Spider-Man) and sang This Is Halloween to me. My sister-in-law had the most put-together house on their island; naturally the whole family has a house. And my niece's house was very much a dollhouse, and that's just about the cutest thing ever.

And then, once all was said and done, I soaked long in a bath, my fiance came home, we watched Death Note, and then I fell asleep drawing (also we banged nice) and I practically had the best day ever, despite being injured.

TL;DR: I love my family.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Just the best
Mom's soup and garlic bagels
Relaxing radio
My Brother My Brother & Me
Death Note
Hades
PMDDX
Taking a Break

10.6.20

I Think I'm Elated?

Two days ago I was daydreaming about moving away somewhere cheap and becoming a full-time artist/content creator. It doesn't seem impossible until I realize I'm up to my neck in student loan debt. So I daydream about not having debt, and decide there and then that any money I make with commissions will herefore go toward my student debt until the bastard is gone, and then I dream about owning a house. Anyway, shortly thereafter I learn that the company I work for is closing their shares and everyone who owns any must be paid out. I learn I have 3000, and they will be paid out at around $6 a share. Of course, I will have to pay taxes on this chunk of change, but... I might be able to completely pay off one of my two loans. I'm trying not to lose my shit over this, but I'm failing. I might be able to finally snowball my way out of debt. Fingers crossed, fingers crossed. Until then.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Holy Shit
Phillipino Pastry, Fried Chicken once every 3 weeks
TQBF
My Brother My Brother & Me
Digimon Remake
Stepmania
Got saved in PMDDX
Taking a Break

9.22.20

Little Anxious, But Jazzed

Made a few big purchases, a DDR pad and an Occulus Quest 2. I've been wanting to exercise lately, but gyms are still closed due to sickness & the air quality has been so poor because of the fires that I'm discouraged from going on hikes. So, maybe learning to play some different video games will help ^^; I'm very close to having no commissions in my queue, which is extremely cool and anxiety inducing. Everything seems to be anxiety inducing at the moment. I wonder why? Also I've found new back fat under my arms and I'm really hating myself over it. I went from weight lifting, hiking, dieting for my wedding body, to back fat. This year has been great for art and terrible on my body. Also, after lamenting my current physical state, my fiance went shopping and came back with chocolates, 2 packs of oreos, a family sized bag of chips, and ice cream. I wanted to cry.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Anxiety Induced
Smoothies, Rice Bowls, Phillipino Pastry
Nothing
My Brother My Brother & Me
Gambling Anime on Netflix
Stepmania
Mobile Legends Bang Bang Chess
The Demon King

9.16.20

Life is Good

My brother, his wife & children visited. I managed to catch some time with them on the tail end of my week-long vacation. The vacay was good, relaxing. I pushed myself hard to do art stuff, but it never really feels like enough. Anyway, my brother's family is beautiful and fun. My fiance got to meet them and they got along wonderfully. We stayed up until 12 chatting, and my partner and I were exhausted. We're almost done with the first Gundam series. I'm sallying forth through a difficult commission. I'd like to 3D model again once I'm free of comms. But I also need money... I'm saving up to buy my first (purchased/new) car. Forgive my short, simple "I" statements. I probably have 5-6 hours of sleep under my belt and I'm useless without 8 or more. I just want to... make things... and be healthy.....

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Family Happy!
Chipotle & Tamales
Hacyondaze by Kitcaliber
Hello From The Magic Tavern
Game Center CX
Among Us
Mobile Legends Bang Bang Chess
Nothing atm!

9.3.20

Happy September!

I noticed a few spirits rising now that "fall" is upon us. The fires in Cali are being contained, we've had a few sprinkles. It's not bad overall. I finished Count of Monte Cristo; what a sociopath. I loved it. Rewatched Akira and Baby Driver with my parents last night, while I stopped by to do laundry. Shared an Ike's Sandwich with my dad (the Hot Momma Huda) and he loooved it. My cat looks like he's gotten in fights, might have a lump on his ribs, but overall he's a Good Boy. Yesterday my partner woke me up with something unpleasant, but once I stood up for myself he apologized and really, all was well. It felt good to be heard, and I was sorry for his frustration. We have good communication. We're all human. This Friday is an art-restrospective stream for an album cover I did for one of my favorite musicians. I've been listening to her work since middle school (over 10 years), and I can't say it was one of my dreams to make album art for her, because I simply never thought that was something that would ever happen. Well! What a twist of fate!! And now I talk to this person practically every day, and they are a joy. And they are human too (which is pretty great). There are hard things going on too, but I'm filling things around me with too much good to let it bother me. Keep on keeping on.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Pretty Dang Good
Too much almond cereal
Hacyondaze by Kitcaliber
AGDQ
PMD DX
Nothing atm!

8.19.20

Been a bit

I fail to notice how I went so long without an entry. Time flies. The last week has been hellish. Deaths, heat warnings, thunder storms, and now a fire north of here that is unpredictable. I fear it may come closer to where I work and we may have to evacuate. As I listen to books it is periodically interrupted by an incredibly loud warning sound coming from my phone and my coworkers'. I don't want to be afraid. I am already deathly depressed. On the flip side, I cleaned my car, paid all my bills, and scheduled a massage. I am trying to be happy. The people around me are supportive; The world is against me.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Anxious
Sunshine Bar
Nothing
AGDQ
Fall Guys
Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

8.12.20

I'm in love

I had a good dream last night, however the only one I can remember is the one of my partner and I trying to escape a burning city. The echo of pleasant feelings from the good dream still linger, and so I am sated. I stumbled across the internet to find journals, recent ones, of people logging their experiences during quarantine. I'm impassioned and filled with a burning desire to spread the good word that is web building. I'm just so happy to see an outlet for people that isn't social media or large app platforms (my skin crawls to even type it). I'm being dramatic. But I've also been listening to 7 straight hours of Count of Monte Cristo, so I think I'm allowed to be. Shit rules.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Amped
Applesauce/Top Ramen
Nothing
K-On
Mobile Legends Bang Bang
Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

8.11.20

Less sleep. Feeling hopeful.

My partner loves his new job (even though it's only been a day). I'm working vigorously to keep creative. It's detracting from other aspects of life, but because of quarantine, I barely have other aspects of life. So I am still fulfilled. I'm hoping when my partner's days are longer, I'll have three hours to myself each day after work. I'll go on walks, do more focused work, or lounge extra hard. We'll see. It's getting colder out. Not quite fall. This summer felt pitifully short. If my wedding had gone through, I'd be on the beach...

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Driven
Applesauce/Top Ramen
Nothing
K-On
Mobile Legends Bang Bang
Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

8.10.20

Excited today! Barely slept.

Partner starts a new job today. Here's looking to bright futures uwu! I slept very little, but for some reason that energizes me (it is probably a fake energy and I will crash later). Had terrible Salo dreams. I dreamt I was a girl escaping the place on foot, and once she died I dreamt I was a boy escaping via stolen car. There were high-school friends there. Definitely some unresolved trauma there HA. It was a fucked up movie to say the least. Aside from that, last night I got to work on a commission, talk about Pokemon Mystery Dungeon, play phone games, watch Gundam, and eat good food with my partner. A good night overall. Today I have very little plans. We'll see.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Going to be Tired
Reeses Puffs for Breakfast
Comedy Bang Bang
Gundam/Anime Trailers
Disney Sorcerers (bad)
Gathering Blue by Lois Lowry

8.9.20

So far, a good day.

This journal was made today. If and when I can help it, I'd like to journal my days in these troubled times. I think it will help me remember, and will track my progress in whatever it is I'm doing. It'll be different than typical site updates. It'll be a little more intimate and personal. Maybe I'll have to use code names to cover some things... We'll see. I hope this helps my retention overall. My brain no work so good sometimes.

This section might be boring for some people. But I will enjoy it.

All the best,
ohmi

mood


Anxious but Okay

A plain bagel, coffee

Dungeons & Daddies

Salo tonight

PMD DX

8.8.20

It was a rough day.

This is a retroactive post. Today was difficult and I slept for most of it. I had hoped to draw or work on commissions, but my medication was getting the best of me. Head swam, but I got through it. Tomorrow is a new day.

All the best,
ohmi

mood

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08.06.20

This is a post uwu

This template was founded by Almost Sweet. I'd like to thank them for sharing & I look forward to tweaking it and putting my own flavor on it.

A couple of things to remind myself of: Visual Novel maker. Twine is one of them. I'll expand on this later. Also, how am I going to link on this? Don't ask me. Thanks for reading!

All the best,
ohmi

mood

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